Oh boy do I have a lot of questions.
Why do I have so many friends battling disease?
Why do so many people I love have to wait? (And wait so long?)
How can a sweet little boy really have cancer?
How can a family prepare to say goodbye to their sweet baby?
I just don't get it.
I have a lot of questions.
I've been wrestling with God over these questions.
I've been questioning my faith. And my God walk. And wondering how someone could send me an email to tell me I am such an inspiration to them when I felt so far away from God and felt like I had so little faith left.
But the questions- the unanswered questions- that's what faith is, isn't it?
Not having all the answers to the questions.
Not having all the answers to the questions. and just believing.
Believing. And trusting.
And leaning on the truth.
And I realized that these questions are okay to ask. But I may not ever get the answers I want this side of heaven.
And with faith, that's okay.
I just have to keep leaning on the truth.
Truth:
'God comforts the broken hearted.'
'He gives strength to the weary.'
'Thou art with me. Thy rod and Thy staff, they comfort me.'
'The Lord your God is in your midst, A victorious warrior. He will exult over you with joy, He will be quiet in His love, He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy.'
'He shall wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there shall no longer be any death; there shall no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away.'
'I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for good and not evil, to give you a future and hope.'
HOPE.
PS-
Loved this truth from Ann's blog today:
You may wrestle, but in Him you have won. You may regret, but in Him you will rise. You may suffer, but in Him you are secure. You may no longer be free to live the easy way, but you will be free to the liberty of doing everything for love.
